Monday, March 16, 2009
Invincible
I lived the last decade like I think I would never really grow old. Forever young I will be.
Today, I felt that slight sinking feeling once more- a kind of envy for others. I am once again the one to be left behind.
I just found out that my good buddy, Harry is getting engaged. A sign of becoming an adult. He was a fun party boy.
I still feel like a teenager.
“No matter what, we'll still party like the way we do,” he told me in September at MOS.
“Well, now you say. But when you're married, things will change somewhat.” I said with a smile.
I have heard this line from close friends one too a many time. B said the same thing too and partying thereafter has never been quite the same.
For a long time, I failed to comprehend this sinking feeling B was so trying to tell me or the peer pressure V once felt to get engaged to that ex.
Now I do.
I feel I am still living in 2008. Everyone has moved on. To greener pastures, that is.
I feel alone. No career and no fun.
I am not ready to grow up yet. But becoming thirty beckons me in two weeks.
I lived the last decade like I think I would never really grow old. Forever young I will be.
Today, I felt that slight sinking feeling once more- a kind of envy for others. I am once again the one to be left behind.
I just found out that my good buddy, Harry is getting engaged. A sign of becoming an adult. He was a fun party boy.
I still feel like a teenager.
“No matter what, we'll still party like the way we do,” he told me in September at MOS.
“Well, now you say. But when you're married, things will change somewhat.” I said with a smile.
I have heard this line from close friends one too a many time. B said the same thing too and partying thereafter has never been quite the same.
For a long time, I failed to comprehend this sinking feeling B was so trying to tell me or the peer pressure V once felt to get engaged to that ex.
Now I do.
I feel I am still living in 2008. Everyone has moved on. To greener pastures, that is.
I feel alone. No career and no fun.
I am not ready to grow up yet. But becoming thirty beckons me in two weeks.
