Friday, August 21, 2009
Grapevine
From the social grapevine, an old friend from my Parisian days wrote to say hi and briefly mentioned that M is about to move to Singapore to do his MBA.
Hmm, interesting I thought to myself. M has been travelling to Singapore heaps for work but each time I missed him.
The very first time he had been to Singapore was 2005/6. He came for me. We spent the New Year together and parted sadly at the airport. I remembered him writing a brief email to me the next day that returning back to Hong Kong felt strange. He was a man of few words-only told me he loved me towards the end. I remember walking past the guest room of my house where he slept for a good 3 or 4 nights (see, even I am getting forgetful with time) and felt strange at the sight of the empty king sized bed, like I was half expecting to see him still lying there...
I haven't seen him since he left- too many rainchecks and missed timings.
One moment in time, I believe we must have loved each other.
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A number of months ago (again, my memory is failing me and I have begun to stop remembering) we messaged each other on Facebook. After I mentioned about being back with DL and being really happy with my life now, he then he revealed that he now has a girlfriend. He said he was glad I had "someone to take care of" me now. Like I am a baby who needed to be looked after. M is four years younger than me.
****
Many moons ago, I did wonder at our future possibilities.
M is an intelligent guy and the best looking boy I have ever been with. All my girlfriends seem so "proud" of me to score a looker like him. I just remember him as the most sensual kisser I have ever had. There was also something about his lover hugs.
I am now remembering his long arms, always wide enough to hold me and squeeze me tight.
Singapore- who would have thought my beautiful ex lover boy would end up living here?
We had too little too late.
From the social grapevine, an old friend from my Parisian days wrote to say hi and briefly mentioned that M is about to move to Singapore to do his MBA.
Hmm, interesting I thought to myself. M has been travelling to Singapore heaps for work but each time I missed him.
The very first time he had been to Singapore was 2005/6. He came for me. We spent the New Year together and parted sadly at the airport. I remembered him writing a brief email to me the next day that returning back to Hong Kong felt strange. He was a man of few words-only told me he loved me towards the end. I remember walking past the guest room of my house where he slept for a good 3 or 4 nights (see, even I am getting forgetful with time) and felt strange at the sight of the empty king sized bed, like I was half expecting to see him still lying there...
I haven't seen him since he left- too many rainchecks and missed timings.
One moment in time, I believe we must have loved each other.
****
A number of months ago (again, my memory is failing me and I have begun to stop remembering) we messaged each other on Facebook. After I mentioned about being back with DL and being really happy with my life now, he then he revealed that he now has a girlfriend. He said he was glad I had "someone to take care of" me now. Like I am a baby who needed to be looked after. M is four years younger than me.
****
Many moons ago, I did wonder at our future possibilities.
M is an intelligent guy and the best looking boy I have ever been with. All my girlfriends seem so "proud" of me to score a looker like him. I just remember him as the most sensual kisser I have ever had. There was also something about his lover hugs.
I am now remembering his long arms, always wide enough to hold me and squeeze me tight.
Singapore- who would have thought my beautiful ex lover boy would end up living here?
We had too little too late.
